The Dark Side of the Newly Built Body

I've got some medical ish going on.  Today I meet with a surgeon to figure out just what the ish is.  I have my suspicions.

I have been the proud recipient of two c-sections (1 emergency, 1 scheduled)  The massive abdominal surgery being the end point of two pregnancies where I carried two extra-large babies.  They were 8.9 lbs and 9.10 lbs respectively.  My c-sections were very medically necessary, for if not for the invention of c-section my first son and I would not be on this planet today.

As you may also know, I am in the process of a major bring back the body over haul and in this process a few things other than weight loss, BMI lower and muscle building have taken place.  I am experiencing major abdominal pain.  Major I say.  My doctor and I have ruled out hernia, for which I was certain it was, and she now thinks "Abdominal Adhesions" are to blame (gross).  The scar tissue and mess from the c-sections are getting all tangled and pulled and angry from all of my body building.  It hurts like crazy, crazy I tell you.

So today I go see what Mr. Surgeon and I can do about this little mess.   In the mean time I have to stop my work out regimen as it is far too painful, so I had to e-mail my lover boyfriend trainer, Jay and tell him he'll just have to miss me for a while.

Here is what that little lamb chop had to say back:

 

Hi Laurie,

 

Thanks for letting me know. I hope everything works out ok. Maybe your just getting to jacked for your own good!?! I think you just need to stop showing everybody your abs all the time and actually let them have a break!!   JK!!!   Really though I hope it is nothing serious and everything goes smooth.

 

Talk to you soon,

Jay

Isn't he dreamy?  As much as I'd like to think, I know he isn't spying on me 'cause I don't show anyone my abs.  My abs, strong and ripped as they may be are still hidden deep beneath the empty, big ass baby, skin bag that hangs off my mid-section.  My abs are jacked as he would say, you just can't see them. When and where does all of that extra stretched skin go, if ever?  Drat.  I do like to show off my pecs.  But that is easily accomplished with a v-neck. No obvious flaunting necessary.

I received a photo recently taken of yours truly that I can't stop staring at.  It's not any good.  Lighting is bad, it's blurry, the facial expressions are not particularly flattering, composition is all off.  What is note worthy is that I think I look like a tall drink of water, skinny water.  I've wanted to post it to Facebook and say it just like it is:  This photo sucks, it's of no interest to anyone except that I LOOK SKINNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

I don't remember I time EVER in my life when I actually felt like I looked slim and trim in a photo.  This body image stuff is such an unending pain..... until now it seems:

That is me on the right, my friend Kate on the left has always been freakishly skinny, we don't care about how she looks in this photo.  For me, it's the first time I have been pleased with the "Is that what I really look like?".  This time I hope so!  Of course it has to come just in time for me to stop the gym and go under the knife.  C'est La Vie -  it just means more time with the man when I recover!

Comments

[Leigh]

Ummm your totally hot and skinny and before you were skinny you were just plain hot...Sorry to hear about your surgery and sorry I don't know how to work my camera(the margaritas may have had something to do with it:)

[Barefoot Liz]

I hope I'll be seeing you at the Barefoot Conference. It will be a great time to show off your ass...ets. ;-)

Oh, and I've been wondering how to get rid of my big ol saggy pouch of a belly (other than surgery). Did your physical trainer have any advice?